I had an affair on my husband between...

I had an affair on my husband between March and May of this year. It started as a one time one night drunkin deal well neither him nor I could do this. So we kept it up. My husband was very suspicious of us but never had any proof and he will never have any. The worst case scinerio happened and I fell for the guy, I mean reason the sky is blue reason to breath daily love. When I finally got up the nerve to tell him this he took off and I haven't seen him since. Recently I found out he ended up having a girlfriend although they didn't get together until after this whole thing started I can't help but wonder WHY NOT ME!!!! He now lives 6 blocks from me in a VERY small city how is this possible. IF there is an all mighty one my one and only request is I do not run into him. Although my marriage has been on a downward spiral for a long time and I am in the process of getting a divorce and on my own feet with my children. I know if I seen this guy again I might just go out of my mind.