I am not proud of the fact that...

I am not proud of the fact that I have slept with many different guys, my husband tells me he doesn't like to be around certain friends because I have slept with them. I just wish I could go back and wipe the slate clean. I wish that I would have been strong enough to not succumb to sexual pressure, I didn't know anything about purity and I'm glad God has given me the opportunity to cleanse myself. I have been married for 13 years and I just wish that I would have waited for my wedding night.